[upbeat rock music playing]
[Alyssa] A lot of the time, you don't register
the important moments in your life as they happen.
You only see that they were important when you look back.
Fuck seat belts.
What should we do?
We need to find somewhere nearby, somewhere nice.
Holy shit.
[James] Is breaking and entering the best way of lying low?
I think that's him, the guy that lives here.
[Alyssa] We can just chill here, take our time.
Sometimes James feels like a boy I could love, like, really love.
[James] Being with Alyssa had started to make me feel things.
- How did you get in here? - Please don't.
He was going to hurt you, Alyssa.
Fucking drive!
[James] I killed him. She didn't do anything.
- [police officer] Move! - Tell them that I did it all.
Then you'll be okay.
- [police officer] Armed police! - James!
[gun fires]
["How Glad I Am" playing]
♪ My love has no beginning My love has no end ♪
♪ No front or back And my love won't bend ♪
♪ I'm in the middle ♪
♪ Lost in a spin ♪
♪ Loving you... ♪
[door opens]
♪ And you don't know, you don't know You don't know, you don't know... ♪
[laughs softly]
[Ray] Bonnie.
It is you!
It's Ray. From Saint Joseph's.
We were in the same class.
I had, like, a... medical eye patch for a bit.
Oh, yeah.
[scanner beeps]
And one of those.
[scanner beeps]
So how are you? You got kids?
No.
- Married? - No.
So what have you been doing?
Prison.
Oh, right.
Why were you, uh...
What did you do?
I killed someone.
On purpose.
Right.
[laughs]
Shit.
[both laughing]
You properly got me there.
You got me.
- You always had a weird sense of humour. - Yeah.
I'm gonna go kill someone else now.
- Do you want a bag? - No, thanks.
Bye, Ray.
["How Glad I Am" continues playing]
♪ And you don't know, you don't know You don't know, you don't know ♪
♪ How glad I am... ♪
[Bonnie] I learnt about punishment from a young age.
I learnt it happens because of love.
[song fades]
- Austria. - Vienna.
- China. - Beijing.
- Democratic Republic of the Congo. - Kinshasa.
Latvia.
Kiev?
I feel like you've punched me in the face.
[Bonnie] My mum always wanted me to go to university.
["My Special Angel" playing]
[Bonnie] She couldn't go because she got pregnant.
With me.
She always put me first.
[Bonnie's dad] Cod.
Again?
It's good for the synapses.
[Bonnie] Dad spent a lot of time in the garden.
When I was 17, he lost his job.
He didn't want to tell us, so every day he got in the car
and drove around until it was time to come home.
When Mum found out, she was quite upset.
♪ You are my special angel ♪
♪ Right from paradise... ♪
[Bonnie] Dad left soon after that.
[Bonnie's dad] I'm...
just getting some milk.
[Bonnie] Mum said we were better off without him.
[Bonnie's mum sobbing]
Mum?
[Bonnie] It meant she could focus all her energy on me.
Where'd you get this?
I found it.
Do you know what kind of women wear this?
Hookers.
Hookers don't pass exams.
Eat it.
What?
[enunciating] Eat...
it.
All of it.
[Bonnie] Life can be hard.
Make sure you chew.
[Bonnie] Mum taught me how to cope with it.
Fucking weirdo.
[Bonnie] How to cope with people.
[school bell ringing]
I'm gonna have to suspend you.
Okay.
- Can I keep that? - No.
[Bonnie] When I was 18, I failed all my exams.
Mum was actually okay about it.
Three A's.
Good.
[Bonnie] And it didn't stop me from going to university.
[man] Thanks.
[Bonnie] I got a job there.
[scanner beeps]
You a student here as well?
[Bonnie] Sometimes a small decision can lead to something big.
- Yes. - Cool.
[Bonnie] Something really big.
["The Old Man's Back Again" playing]
♪ I seen a hand ♪
♪ I seen a vision ♪
♪ It was reaching through the clouds ♪
♪ To risk a dream ♪
♪ The shadow crossed the sky ♪
♪ And it crushed into the ground ♪
♪ Just like a beast ♪
[neck cracks]
♪ The old man's back again ♪
♪ The old man's back again... ♪
Uh, may I?
[song fades]
[sighs]
[Clive Koch exhales]
This is your textbook for the term.
Don't move.
Let's begin.
[upbeat Flamenco music playing]
Foucault is an embarrassment.
He has no class.
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you."
Sartre.
Be the protagonist in your own story.
And that story begins with an act of intellectual defiance.
Read Max Weber, Erving Goffman.
Or if you want a more contemporary perspective,
this guy's pretty good.
[music ends abruptly]
[Koch] You're not a student, are you?
You just work here.
People have earned the right to come to my class.
You haven't.
I don't want to see you again. Okay?
[Bonnie] Sometimes people don't see your potential.
So you have to show them.
[Koch] Was this you?
Is this human shit?
Yeah.
Yours?
Maybe.
[scoffs]
You can come to my class... on one condition.
What?
You have a drink with me.
Once a week.
Okay.
["Wondrous Place" playing]
[Bonnie] Finally, I could see a future for myself.
And it felt good.
♪ I found a place full of charms ♪
♪ A magic world in my baby's arms... ♪
[Koch] Go ahead.
♪ Her soft embrace like satin and lace ♪
♪ A wondrous place ♪
[music stops]
["Above Suspicion" playing over record player]
[breathes deeply]
♪ We're above suspicion ♪
♪ Both you and I ♪
♪ They say that I'm a good girl... ♪
Take a seat.
♪ And that I'm a good guy ♪
[music stops]
Do you like this?
Not really.
[exhales]
So...
Tell me about yourself.
No.
Okay.
Why did you want to take my class?
I was interested.
[Koch] In what?
In what the point is...
of anything.
Why aren't you a student?
- You're clearly bright. - Failed my exams.
[scoffs]
Exams rank different levels of mediocrity, that's all.
Exceptional people don't do well at them.
I didn't.
You are very pretty.
- [laughs lightly] - [Koch chuckles]
Do you know that?
Do people tell you that?
You're a little salmon, aren't you?
What?
You want to swim against the tide.
Should we take our clothes off?
Take a taxi.
Thank you.
Do you know something?
What?
I could fall in love with you.
["He's a Keeper of the Fire" playing]
♪ He's as heavy as a lead weight, baby ♪
♪ He's as skinny as a wire... ♪
[Bonnie] Has it happened yet?
What?
The love.
[sighs]
Nearly.
But we're finished for tonight.
♪ He's got a heavy kinda hoodoo, baby ♪
♪ And he can lay it on you ♪
♪ He can say it like... ♪
[music stops]
♪ I gave you my heart ♪
♪ Long, long ago ♪
♪ I can't take it back ♪
♪ Darling, you know... ♪
[sighs]
♪ How you treat me mean ♪
Just, uh, returning these and getting this one out.
[scanner beeps]
This is really good.
Yeah, it's my favourite.
Yeah.
So you speak German then?
- Yeah. - Oh, cool.
[speaking German]
[clears throat] Okay.
Great.
Thanks.
Who was that?
He wants to be my boyfriend.
He asked me to a fondue night tomorrow.
Are you gonna go?
I like cheese.
[whispering] I'd like to take some photographs of you.
[whispering] What?
Come and see me tomorrow night.
How about tonight?
I can't do tonight.
[Bonnie] When you want something,
it's hard to wait.
You can get impatient.
[glass shatters]
[car alarm blaring]
Who is she?
- Oh, I didn't want to worry you. - What?
[Koch] I'd only seen her in lectures.
I didn't know her name
until she came to see me a couple of weeks ago.
I was stupid.
Agreeing to talk to her alone.
She said she was worried about her exams.
I believed her.
She's clearly in love with me.
And now she's made up these lies.
She's threatening me.
She's gonna say I attacked her. She wants to destroy me.
My life, my work. Everything.
The girl's mad.
[Koch sniffles]
So it isn't true?
How can you ask me that?
- No, look, I didn't... - Get out.
Get out!
[solemn music playing]
[Bonnie] Love makes you feel quite clear about what is right and what is wrong.
And when someone has done something wrong, they have to get punished.
♪ Ooh ♪
♪ Walk down a road ♪
♪ With me ♪
♪ Walking out ♪
♪ I'm here for ♪
♪ Getting out of my head ♪
♪ Making plans for a better ♪
♪ Beginning ♪
[car brakes screeching]
[thudding]
[car door alarm beeping]
[dialing on cell phone]
[sniffles]
[shakily] Ambulance.
There's been an accident. [sniffles]
[soft guitar playing]
♪ It's a long road... ♪
[Bonnie] You asked me to tell you about myself that time,
and I said no.
I want to tell you now.
I learnt about punishment from a young age.
I learnt it happens because of love.
I used to feel like I maybe wasn't real.
Like I was made up of nothing.
But when you fall in love, the nothing feeling
is eaten by a something feeling,
which is eaten by an everything feeling.
You swallowed me,
and set me free.
[guitar music continues]
[James] How do you know that this one is safe?
[Alyssa] No obvious burglar alarm.
Dust everywhere, so no cleaner to worry about.
Post.
At least a week's worth.
[James] Is breaking and entering the best way of lying low?
♪ Fly away ♪
What?
[music ends]
[Bonnie screaming]
["How Glad I Am" playing]
♪ My love has no beginning My love has no end ♪
♪ No front or back And my love won't bend ♪
♪ I'm in the middle ♪
♪ Lost in a spin ♪
♪ Loving you ♪
♪ And you don't know, you don't know You don't know, you don't know... ♪
Hi.
Is Alyssa in?
♪ My love has no bottom My love has no top ♪
♪ My love won't rise And my love won't drop ♪
♪ I'm in the middle ♪
♪ And I can't stop ♪
♪ Loving you ♪
♪ And you don't know, you don't know You don't know, you don't know ♪
♪ How glad I am ♪